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Presence: The Golden Key That Unlocked My Flow
Last week in an Instagram story I shared that at the crux of giving and receiving love (and what I believe is at the core of all love languages) is PRESENCE. Later that day, a loved one asked me on the phone what had helped me in becoming and being more present in my life.
The full answer comes in a long and winding healing story that spans the last 5 years (and continues on, of course), but I loved her question because
PRESENCE is the golden key that unlocked my flow.
Last week in an Instagram story I shared that at the crux of giving and receiving love (and what I believe is at the core of all love languages) is PRESENCE. Later that day, a loved one asked me on the phone what had helped me in becoming and being more present in my life.
The full answer comes in a long and winding healing story that spans the last 5 years (and continues on, of course), but I loved her question because
PRESENCE is the golden key that unlocked my flow.
While offering my presence and energy to others was more natural years ago (and now I can see that the quality of that presence was not always of my highest offering as I was often in my head and not embodied), cultivating presence with myself and everything swirling inside of me did not come easy to me.
I was the Queen of avoidance of my inner workings, pain, needs, desires, and more, and I needed A LOT of support in the early years of working with my coach to feel safe enough to really allow presence in - to really allow myself to slow down, to deeply listen to myself , to feel and tend.
As I found my footing and slowly walked through the presence initiation, there was a lot of pain and grief asking to be held and seen, but there was also incredible and immense love, wisdom, breakthroughs, and liberation. This unlocking process was one of great release of all I had been holding in for so many years, offering me more inner space to breathe and be, to explore and evolve, to experience contentment, peace, and joy. It unlocked my ability to FLOW with all of me and all of Life.
In my experience, without presence there is no conscious flow.
Without presence, there is no embodied acceptance.
Without presence, we miss out on the magic of our continued becoming and soul evolution because instead of seeing and working with life as a great teacher and mirror, we feel distracted and trapped by all the challenges that come our way.
Presence opens the doorway to deep listening, to attuning our ear and heart to our knowing.
Presence opens the doorway to liberation and healing as it brings us into connection with emotions that want to flow through us and create space in us.
Presence connects us to the grace, Love, compassion, and vibrancy that is already alive within us, no matter how disconnected we have felt from it.
Presence offers humility in our humanness and opens us to the awe and wonder of our Divinity.
Presence allows us to hear the subtle (or not so) knock of the needs and desires that have been over-ridden or pushed away, sometimes for years.
Presence is the key that opens to the doorway to abundant paths of possibility, the key that unlocks the patterns that keep us operating in survival mode, and then offers us a vision and steps toward thriving.
Presence invites intimate tending, budding, blooming and shedding of all that is ours to steward and grow.
Presence gifts clear sight to see what isn’t ours and to embrace what is.
Presence guides us in receiving higher consciousness, and offering from wholeness all that we are here to offer.
When we say yes to presence, no matter how scared we are of what might be on the other side of its doorway, we say yes to ourselves - to our hearts, to our soul journey, to our pain, to our passions, hopes, and dreams, to connection in all direction - to our unique Flow of being and living and natures and nourishes all that we wish to create in this life.
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finding your attuned pace & creating spaciousness to sink in to acceptance in an embodied way
Yesterday, I recorded an instagram live to explore and teach on the power and cultivation of ‘Attuned Pace’, and how Awareness, Acknowledgment, and Acceptance work together to free up energy in our emotional, physical, and energetic systems. I loved how it turned out, and it was a perfect peak into the first few weeks of my More Myself Group Program the begins next week.
Yesterday, I recorded an instagram live to explore and teach on the power and cultivation of ‘Attuned Pace’, and how Awareness, Acknowledgment, and Acceptance work together to free up energy in our emotional, physical, and energetic systems.
I loved how it turned out, and it was a perfect peak into the first few weeks of my More Myself Group Program the begins next week.
Listen to the replay podcast style here:
Watch the replay on Instagram here:
In the first few weeks of the More Myself Group container, starting 2/21, we will lay the foundations for the program by deeply engaging with the energy and healing available through each of these areas.
The juicy process of Transformation (brought to you by my daily walk through the park)
Over the years I have fallen deeply in love with the process of transformation, which perfectly mirrors this threshold and progression of the seasons reflected in the park: the beauty and magic of allowing one’s Self the space to unravel and shed what isn’t truly theirs to be or hold, creating and allowing a held emptiness and willingness to just BE, trusting that in perfect time, new energy, vibrancy and states of being will take root and sprout.
For the past 6 weeks, I have been contemplating the threshold of winter and spring on my daily walks through the park near our house. There have been days sprinkled with sunlight, days when I can feel spring rising up so powerfully inside and out, and there have been days blanketed with snow or gloom. While the snow holds its own beauty, at this time of year it continuously draws me to the frozenness that hasn’t fully thawed yet - a reminder that winter is still present even though I hear the hunger for spring renewal rumbling deep within.
I have watched the dead of winter slowly transition into spring, starting at the ground level. Each day there is a touch of new green, or a new flower or bud sprouting at the base of the Earth. But the moment I raise my eyes again, everything still looks dead - appearing to still be fully devoted to hibernation and restoration, where energy is still being gathered for the coming season.
On every walk I feel the unpredictable pace, wisdom, and shifting of my inner seasons reflected back to me. The sprinkles of green on the forest floor, amidst bare trunks and branches, remind me of the transitional phases between different states of being or seasons of life - the moments when the anticipated signs of the future are peeking through, yet we continue to live a known/old reality. I am reminded that only when we make space for and cultivate trust in the whole, full process of growth, can holding what is still dying or dead while simultaneously embracing the hope for life that is to come feel like a joyful, awe-inspired daily adventure.
the threshold of the inner seasons
Exploring and embracing our current inner seasons, and releasing any conditioned expectations to be somewhere we are not, is an extremely liberating and poetic journey I lead my clients through and have walked through many times. On my personal path, the past few years have included drawn out periods of inner fall’s shedding, followed by prolonged periods of cocooning and restoring through long inner winter(s). For a few years, this inward flow felt much more familiar than the bouncy, outer energy of spring or summer.
However this year I have experienced inner spring fiercely bubbling - finally feeling the steady energy I craved for months, potentially years. Much has been invisibly building and I can finally feel the sprouts about to break through the surface.
And yet, many of those sprouts have still not made themselves outwardly visible, but my daily walks through the park have once again reminded me of the beauty, worthiness, and power of holding the pieces of our inner terrain that still feel barren or frozen with honor, awe, gratitude, and even delight. Even if spring is all I want to focus on, the lingering winter reminds me the there is still more sacred tending to hold space for - and to trust that doing so will only cultivate the energy of my inner spring even more.
I am reminded that I mustn’t fear the daily reminders of winter, and that transformation doesn’t blossom from one day to the next; the threshold of winter and spring is like my walks - a treasure hunt for new beauty, new life, colors and plants I haven’t seen before.
If I allow it, it brings awe, reminding me to slow down, to take in every moment of sacred presence that I can. To fully BE with the process of shedding (fall), entering a hibernation or void space (winter), and from the darkness witnessing the light and life that starts to break through when it is time (spring), and the ferociously flourish (summer).
The process is potent and sacred. The seasons are working together, in natural progression, and I can choose to respect, honor, and be in flow with their rhythm, with my rhythm. And when I am, I will be carried into my next season in perfect timing, with all of the tools and wisdom I need.
The juicy process of Transformation
Over the years I have fallen deeply in love with the process of transformation, which perfectly mirrors this threshold and progression of the seasons reflected in the park: the beauty and magic of allowing one’s Self the space to unravel and shed what isn’t truly theirs to be or hold, creating and allowing a held emptiness and willingness to just BE, trusting that in perfect time, new energy, vibrancy and states of being will take root and sprout.
We often want to jump from the shedding to the budding, but if we can slow down enough to sit in the emptiness space that is created between each season, we being to hear and feel our soul and essence humming, expanding, playing, coming forth more palpably. In this open field, not yet identified understood perhaps, our Divinity vibrates, and there is space for a relationship with our deeper, vaster, loving being(ness) to take root. We can listen and receive, and being to see and feel what energetically is moving its way into being.
This process happens on a micro level in single coaching sessions, and on a macro level in longer containers. No matter how it unfolds, holding space for what wants to emerge with and for my clients, and in my own life, is one of the greatest gifts of my work and life. It is JUICY AS ALL GET OUT!
It is a journey filled with tears and laughter, often in the same session or moment, and while it isn’t magic, it feel magical, liberating, grounding and empowering all at once, reminding us of who we are, the possibility of our being, and the intersection of what it is to embody our Divine-Humanness.
If this resonated with you and feel called to more, you can explore my coaching offerings here.